Weird thoughts

my favorite place 

How I love those summerevenings.. being outside, going through the woods, listening to the birds, hanging in my thoughts and just being alone. It's so comfortable, when you don't have to talk with someone. Just being in your own world without an interruption. Some days I hate my home a lot because the village where I live isn't very big, there's no shopping mall, cinema and the worst.. no starbucks! :O but then there are days, like today, where I can't imagine to live somewhere else. Everytime when I sit at my favorite place I think about nearly everything. How I will manage my last school year, what I will do after (?!). Will I travel the world and live in an apartment with big windows and a beautiful balcony and three cats and a dog? Will I be married? Or not? Do you know such thoughts? Sometimes I think about things that noone else would understand. To be honest - I'm a little bit afraid of the future. I want to live a life I will be proud of. I want to create something, I wanna have a little family someday. But what if I didn't find someone who will love me truly and who I will love truly? Maybe it's to early to think about this, I mean I'm just 16, but anyway. Do you know the struggle? You set goals and have plans for the future and then it doesn't exist? However, this is life and this makes life interesting. I'm sorry for this blog post which has no structure in it, but I just wanted to write down what I'm thinking at the moment. I promise you, the next posts will be better. ;) I wish you a good night and take care! X

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